fear

i told my friend Annix that i am having a hard time writing. i am getting frustrated for not being able to let out the words that will express my deepest thoughts at the moment. i have shared these to some friends also, but reading Annix's blog entry made me shocked that she was able to kindda put into words what i cannot. though in a different point of view, there was something that made her writing and my feelings the same. it was the presence of fear. fear to tell the one you love what you truly fear because you are not ready to express yourself with what you feel, neither are you ready for what you want or dont want to hear. you fear that because you'd rather live with the mystery and lies than risk for the truth and a destruction of the good things that you have.

i wish he or someone reads it. *oops!*