Where Are My Effing Books!?!?

damn it really! i am jeopardized for looking for a cheaper price on my books. last tuesday i ordered my books through the school's dundalk campus since they had the used books at a cheaper price. i ordered three books, the management, womens' studies, and english book, and asked it to be shipped home. a since thursday, i have been on the lookout for the books. saturday, i saw package #1 consisting of my new political science books from the essex campus bookstore, and package #2, i have been waiting patiently still. today, i just had to call them and ask them where the hell is it? the guy who i was able to talk to told me that FedEx only replied that the package was delivered on friday and left on the front door, and the guy was like repeating it to my ears twice. what the fuck?!? what does repeating it mean? and whose house did they leave the fucking package anyway? i mean no one would go by the driveway and snatch the thing off the front door! so where the hell did the FedEx guy leave my freaking books!!! i dunno. i feel so down. this is not a great start for this semester. this is too bullshit to happen. i just feel so down. damn it! now what should i do with three of my subjects? i have to pay for fucking xerox copies of chapters that i need to catch up on? and dont ask me to purchase another set coz my management book alone is a fortune that i dont want to pay for another copy because my supposed first copy got lost by the FedEx guy and i have to replace it myself too?!? that is nuts!!! absolutely nuts!

please save my soul my dear for the love of you!

other news: i was rushing this morning going to my first class because i am 10 minutes late. i was rushing for a class that got cancelled for the day. damn!